Sunday, August 9, 2015

More Bios

Still writing bios.  Still deep in thought.  More than halfway there.

I've got my head into the story of my third charge, Maegan ("the princess") from Georgia, and I just realized that all four of the Colondar models that I'm writing up are stage IV cancer survivors.  None of them are completely in remission and three of them are actively fighting.

I'd be lying if it hasn't taken a little bit of a toll.  Don't get me wrong, their stories are inspirational, but when you see such good people still fighting a battle where there's some uncertainly in the outcome, it can bring you down a bit.

That might be some of the reason why these bios are taking a little longer for me to write this year.  I need to clear my head and come up for air every now and then.  I need a break between writing the individual bios.  I know that was certainly the case when I interviewed each of them in Tennessee.  After an intense two hour interview where both me and the model would up crying at some point, I needed some time to clear my head and process.

OK.  Back to it.

7 comments:

  1. You are impressive Doug. I am still wrapping my head around my rediagnosis and that I am now officially Stage 4.I have a copy of the COLONDAR as one of my fellow patients was in the 2013 or 14 edition.
    Doing their bio's must be a rush of emotions.
    For example... today I was fine. After last nights meltdown I WAS FINE. At the Halloween Parade (first graders are brilliant) and snapping photos and taking video, I am seriously just fine.
    Then the high school band that was playing a musical accompaniment starts playing "Somewhere Over The Rainbow" and I just lost that thin steely grip on my composure, ducked between two mini vans and bawled like a baby. I WANT MORE OF THIS, I cried into my still recording tablet. Im scared and I do not do "scared" well AT ALL"
    Within 2 minutes, I stood up, fixed my make up in a side view mirror, straightened my witch had and soldiered on.

    Now ... that is an internal event. My own little terrarium of emotions on a fast track cycle. Me, two mini vans and Judy Garland. Hmmm.
    I can only imagine what it is like for you to sit, listen and then write. Capture the bio, feel their story. Hell, before my port was removed, I would sit in the waiting room listening to the beeps of the chemo machines on the other side of the wall. I wanted to run in and hug every person in the infusion suite to comfort them and to comfort myself.
    Phew!
    Thank you for giving voices to the photographs. Thank you for taking that ride and making these people REAL.

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    1. Shez! I *just* read this -- nine months after you posted. As you can tell, I haven't been on here in quite a while. Well, I'm firing up the blog again, so I came here to write a post and am catching up on all these comments I've missed!!

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  3. Hi Doug,
    Can you please contact me about speaking at a Celebrate Life event for those touched by cancer in Portland on July 2nd. My name is Heather Spencer with Mission Positive Films.
    Thanks.

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  4. Hey Doug my name is Maurice diagnosed with CRC in 2013. Been through the whole process, Chemo, radio, colostomy, 6 surgeries so far. During my last surgery (transanal resection) another growth was removed and came back positive now my doctor says reconnection of my colon is out of the picture and the next step is a (abdominoperenial resection) I'm freaking out not knowing what the end result of the procedure will be. How bad is it? How long is the recovery process? How does it look and feel back there? Will I be limited to do sports like mountain biking, jogging, weights etc? Please share your experience and i ask for some tips and advice..thank you! My e mail is: mauroyepes@ymail.com I will appreciate any sugestions!!

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  5. Hey Doug my name is Maurice diagnosed with CRC in 2013. Been through the whole process, Chemo, radio, colostomy, 6 surgeries so far. During my last surgery (transanal resection) another growth was removed and came back positive now my doctor says reconnection of my colon is out of the picture and the next step is a (abdominoperenial resection) I'm freaking out not knowing what the end result of the procedure will be. How bad is it? How long is the recovery process? How does it look and feel back there? Will I be limited to do sports like mountain biking, jogging, weights etc? Please share your experience and i ask for some tips and advice..thank you! My e mail is: mauroyepes@ymail.com I will appreciate any sugestions!!

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    1. Mauro -- Sorry for not replying earlier. I haven't been on my blog for quite a while. I'll send you an email to see how you're doing.

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